edward "tiny bara" elric. (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
equivalences) wrote2014-12-03 03:26 pm
equivalences) wrote2014-12-03 03:26 pm
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I guess the 8etter way to put it is that for a long time I was way too used to failure.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
As lame and depressing as that sounds.
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FROM: elric.edward@cdc.org
This just a CDC-thing? Or back on your planet too?
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This is a "pretty much my entire pathetic life" thing.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
I have always 8een a8out grand plans and making myself into a leader! 8ut to 8e honest, I never had any fucking clue what I was doing.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
I wasn't fit to lead any8ody. 8ut I tried anyway, and pulled a lot of really idiotic stunts.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
All it got me was alone and h8ed 8y almost everyone I ever knew. When the CDC recruited me, I was pretty much fuck deep in the 8elief that all I was good for was fucking things up.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
I think getting past that is one of the things 8eing on Grey helped me with the most.
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Making mistakes doesn't make you a fuck-up. Mistakes will happen -- it's how you pick up the pieces and move on that really counts.
FROM: elric.edward@cdc.org
I've made a ton of mistakes myself. They cost me so much. But as long as you're alive ... things can be turned around.
FROM: elric.edward@cdc.org
I'm glad it helped you.
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Ed, have you actually ever read my file?
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
Do me a favor and answer that question 8efore you read it if you haven't.
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FROM: elric.edward@cdc.org
I ... I haven't. [ but he may be opening it right now. ]
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Mine aren't the kind of mistakes that just happen.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
And I wouldn't say I'm trying to atone, exactly. There wouldn't 8e much point!
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
8ut I am trying to do something different with my life.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
There are a lot of people who would say a life like mine can't 8e turned around. And that it wouldn't deserve to 8e!
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
And they might 8e right. 8ut fuck it. I'm still going to try.